A dear friend's last gift

I received some sad news today....my dear friend Amy McCutcheon from NY
passed into the presence of Yeshua yesterday. She had recently learned
she had a heart condition that could cause her to pass at any time. She
was not afraid of that at all. She had longed to be with Him so much,
now she is in the fullness of His Presence.

Just a month or so ago the Lord had put it on my heart to ask her to
paint a particular picture for me. A few years ago a lady I know had a
dream about Jesus and I, and she shared it with me. In this dream, He
was represented by His Cup, and my love for Him was represented by a
Hebrew Tallit that was covering the Cup. So I asked Amy to paint this.

Only last week Amy sent me an email showing me the finished painting. To her she said it represented His Marriage Cup...as when a Jewish man offers a cup of wine to his beloved when she accepts his proposal of marriage. So I know now this
painting was not for me alone. I believe the time for Him to come again
is so close...and He is calling out to those who will hear His voice,
to accept and receive His great love for each one of us.

I am so sad about losing my friend, but I am Rejoicing for her. And I
know Yeshua has JOY at having one of His Brides home by His side at
last. She has accepted His proposal, and she is one with Him forever. I love you Amy. See you when I get there too.
painting by Amy McCutcheon

Healer Of My Soul

Yeshua really has been healing and changing me from the inside out....my desire for order in my surroundings is a reflection of that, I am sure.

Made the decision last night to finally stop coloring my hair. My daughter Steph cut it short for me last night and I am loving it! It was so damaged and out of control, frizzy no matter what I did. Now it's nice and healthy again, I tied a rolled up bandana around my head this morning and it's so nice to have my hair out of my face.

I know it could take up to 2 years to be fully grown out to any length, but from what I can tell my roots are really all white now. So hopefully I'll have a full head of pretty, silvery white hair when this transition time is over. I can't wait for it to all be soft and healthy again.

For a long time I wanted to stop having to deal with coloring my hair but feeling the need to try to be as youthful looking as possible stopped me. Also my tendency to self-criticize to a sometimes ridiculous degree, caused me to suspect my motivation was more laziness than anything. But honestly the past week or so, as I directed my thoughts about this to Yeshua, He really gave me a "green light" in my spirit to go ahead with this change. Knowing I have His encouragement in this, I am not worried about the process or how long it will take. I am sure there will be days that I'll feel frustrated but I know it will ultimately be so free-ing to just be myself! The way He made me.

My sweet daughter Bethany was encouraging me years ago to just let my hair go natural, even though I was still fairly young to be white-headed. One time when I was sitting at this computer, she put a little piece of paper in front of me then walked away smiling....she'd written down one of the Proverbs that says something about "white hair is a sign of wisdom and it is seen on those with honor." Something like that. It was sweet and pretty cool.

I returned just a couple of days ago from a wonderful trip down to Texas. I went to a Christian retreat and I can honestly say Yeshua changed my life over the weekend. He has given me a new perspective, and lifted a lot of heaviness from my heart. I know more clearly now why I am on this earth and what He has given me to do. And He has made it more real to me now the truth that I am HIS. Alleluia!!! I know there is nothing I can't face because He loves me. Truly madly deeply loves me.

Well my kids are all back to school as of this morning, but my sweet little boy has come down with a stomach virus. My wanting to catch up on housework after having been away will have to wait. I am glad to be home with him today.

Have a good day and God bless you, whoever may read this! YOU are loved by Him. Amen.