Yeshua really has been healing and changing me from the inside out....my desire for order in my surroundings is a reflection of that, I am sure.
Made the decision last night to finally stop coloring my hair. My daughter Steph cut it short for me last night and I am loving it! It was so damaged and out of control, frizzy no matter what I did. Now it's nice and healthy again, I tied a rolled up bandana around my head this morning and it's so nice to have my hair out of my face.
I know it could take up to 2 years to be fully grown out to any length, but from what I can tell my roots are really all white now. So hopefully I'll have a full head of pretty, silvery white hair when this transition time is over. I can't wait for it to all be soft and healthy again.
For a long time I wanted to stop having to deal with coloring my hair but feeling the need to try to be as youthful looking as possible stopped me. Also my tendency to self-criticize to a sometimes ridiculous degree, caused me to suspect my motivation was more laziness than anything. But honestly the past week or so, as I directed my thoughts about this to Yeshua, He really gave me a "green light" in my spirit to go ahead with this change. Knowing I have His encouragement in this, I am not worried about the process or how long it will take. I am sure there will be days that I'll feel frustrated but I know it will ultimately be so free-ing to just be myself! The way He made me.
My sweet daughter Bethany was encouraging me years ago to just let my hair go natural, even though I was still fairly young to be white-headed. One time when I was sitting at this computer, she put a little piece of paper in front of me then walked away smiling....she'd written down one of the Proverbs that says something about "white hair is a sign of wisdom and it is seen on those with honor." Something like that. It was sweet and pretty cool.
I returned just a couple of days ago from a wonderful trip down to Texas. I went to a Christian retreat and I can honestly say Yeshua changed my life over the weekend. He has given me a new perspective, and lifted a lot of heaviness from my heart. I know more clearly now why I am on this earth and what He has given me to do. And He has made it more real to me now the truth that I am HIS. Alleluia!!! I know there is nothing I can't face because He loves me. Truly madly deeply loves me.
Well my kids are all back to school as of this morning, but my sweet little boy has come down with a stomach virus. My wanting to catch up on housework after having been away will have to wait. I am glad to be home with him today.
Have a good day and God bless you, whoever may read this! YOU are loved by Him. Amen.
I went "silver" a couple years ago. I have never regretted it. Sometimes I wish I looked younger, but I enjoy being natural so much I'd never go back. I feel more "real" this way. I don't think you'll ever be unhappy with your decision.
ReplyDeleteHi Barbara, thank you so much for reading and commenting! I was at your blog this morning but couldn't find the place to post comments....do I ever understand how you felt about your son moving out. *sniff* It was really hard for me when my oldest left, even after each visit home I'd cry. I am finally more used to it now though I certainly do miss her.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you and yours and help you in your homeschooling!